Last month, Of Mice & Men‘s frontman Austin Carlille wrote a message to fans: “I won’t get better,” and the end of year, he has announced his departure from the band.

Carlile ongoing battle with Marfan syndrome — a rare fibrostic connective tissue disorder — which has temporarily side-lined his band’s upcoming performances. In another candid conversation with fans, the 29-year-old reveals that he once attempted suicide.

Carlile’s last ever post while in Of Mice and Men